Past, Present, and Future Love

I fell in love last night. I fell in love with a man that has been a part of my entire adulthood. I fell in love with a man that has molded me into all of the womanliness I possess. I fell in love last night with the first man that has ever had my heard, mind and soul in his hands all at once.I fell in love with my child's father, my husband of eight years.

And it truly felt amazing.

Love is a powerful force, it can make you smile or cry all day long. Some times it can leave you in a state of complete confusion. Other times, and these are the best times, it reminds you that nothing else in the world matters besides love. Nothing.

I had a unwanted period of separation from my husband and now that he is back I feel so elevated.The vibe between us seems to be off to a great start. I am so nervous.

NTW

When I hit my late teens and started learning what life was focused around ($$) I had it stamped in my head NO KIDS FOR ME!!!!

That was all until I somehow let my self fall in love and then had this urge to create, share, and duplicate, gotdamn mother nature!

And now here she is 4 years later. Making me laugh, cry, dance, shout, read, write, and confess. Never had I thought a seed, a creation could give me the feeling that I feel when ever I am with and with out her. It is amazing! I find my self thinking about her future, wondering what she is going to be like as a teen, and as an adult. Will she always love me this much? Will she always kiss me this much? Will she always feel like she needs me? Will she always want to talk to me? Honestly?

I make sure I tell her, that I want her to be honest with me. When she wants to talk about having a boyfriend, I don't shoot her with the, "NOT NOW, don't say that, just think about school" because I know the conversation is going to come up if not with me it will be with one of her pick-a-niny friends, and I DO NOT WANT THAT, ugh.

I love my mini me.

...Next How I Met and fell for Mr. CLW.....

No Kid No Hubbie?

This week has been a very trying one in regards to my relationship and while it appears I have been brushing the seriousness of it off, I have been playing in my mind, my next move and how it may affect my future. Better yet, I am going to dig deep with in my self and do what is necessary for me to overcome this storm and move right on along.
I am going to DC this weekend, and this is going to be the first trip I have taken in a very long time with out my husband and with out my child. This is going to be interesting. I am so ready to site see. I am ready for the change of environment, and I am ready to just take my life to another place via bus lol. Next stop NYC for Halloween! LOL LOL

My clothes are packed, my outfits are decent, nothing on the raunchy level. And shoes aren't loud... not to mention its time for a new pair. I am just ready to link up with my girl meet some new folks, chalk back a few drinks and keep the party rolling!!!!!

DC Here I come!!!!

I feel like I have said this before! lol