To stay or to leave..... Is that really a question?

Ok, so why the hell is life so stressful. And why is it so difficult to gain control of things that seem so within reach. I have worked with the same organization for almost six years. I watched just as much wrong doing as good. But why is it that i am still never amazed at all of the things done that's wrong???

Cause my ass is a slave to a pay check.
Now ain't that a bitch.


So now is the time for me to free my self and venture off into my new world. I am awaiting the over due return of my husband, the union of my family, the introduction of the raw lifestyle and so much more.

I am not sure how I ever became so complacent and comfortable with my current situation. I am not sure how I let them win me over by giving me a raise one year and nixing out on me the next. The bigger question is WHY did I let them do it.

But I guess there is no need to cry over spilled milk. I have learned a lot and now it is time for me to move on. I am really excited about relocating. I will be close to my mom, so she can spend more time with our kid and me and hubby and re-connect the way we have envisioned for some time now. With this extra help the financial strain will be lifted off my shoulders for a bit so I can then focus on school - just saying that is exciting.


From the looks of it I think next week is the week that I drop my notice in... this should be exciting lol lol lol

Again? LOL

I love the fact that life presents so many challenges and then turns right around and blesses you. If I sat down and typed up all that 2010 has delivered to me, you would first laugh, then look at me in disbelief, and then laugh your ass off again.
For what ever reason, while I do in a sense feel beat, I don't feel defeated, if that makes any sense!
Right now, at a very weak point I feel so strong! I am broke as hell, and have not a clue on how I am going to make it past the month, let alone out the year. A second job would be the ideal answer BUT I have a family to look after, one vehicle and classes to attend. A second gig just doesn't look promising right now.
One this is for sure, I got on the damn scale on Tuesday and almost died! LOL LOL I am back at the 170 mark! How and why do I let this happen to me every time? Why am I playing the yo yo game instead of just heading straight for the gotdamn capital. Ugh.
Stress, that's the reason why.

All I can do is just shake it, and continue to plan and move right on along.

Join me LOL

I know...

Its like every six months I have something to post or to say. That is far from the case.

Moving right along.
2010 has shown me just how crazy I can get. Its been a very interesting year thus far.
I've picked up weight, whats below the waist I am liking, but this upper body is not the biz so I am currently working that out. Working it out  full blown this time. Plan on making two more trips to the city this year, and know I have got to come thru looking RIGHT LOL.

I want to take time out and shout out the moms the wives the women that hold it down. I also want to give a double shout  out to the men that keep these women going. Its not an easy task but you've signed on to it.

I want to give a shout out to my husband not only for holding me down thus long and for still being in this court. Its tough but you do it. So stop being an ass 65% of the time and lets get the party started for real!!!!!!!!!!
LOL




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